A Small Confession: Longing for a Carefree Life

Willow Grace

When I was in my 20's I traveled extensively. I went on several excursions around the US for weeks at a time. Crashing in couches of friends, youth hostels, bus stations and cheap hotels. I had a career that allowed me money to travel and I lacked obligations that might have kept me home. While traveling I felt confident and free like I could conquer the world.

Fast forward 14 years. Here I am 43, married for 13 years with two school aged boys and an infant son. My husband and I both work full time. We do the sports parents thing for the older boys. With the help of in laws we juggle everything to make it work. There are days when I ache for my carefree 20's. I'm not unhappy with my life. I love my kids, my husband, and the fact that I can provide for my family.  

I long for the ability to get up and go. I miss my independence. I miss the adventures. I would never just up and leave what I have now but how can I honor and cherish this part of my core being? This is something I have struggled with since having kids.

I know I'm not alone is this feeling. I don't really know what the answer is to this longing for carefree time. Maybe it's a far off goal. Maybe it's never going to happen. I guess for now a girl can dream.

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